Good morning, Everyone! Or anyone.
Now that July is officially here, I think it’s time to start Monday Mental Health Check-Ins.
How is your brain today? How was it over the weekend?
This past week was very hard for me. I had told from my manager, I need to step up or step out. He was a lot kinder about it, lol. This hit me like a freight train. I felt a panic attack grow on me, my feet and hands started tingling. After many, many, many deep breathes I relaxed and was able to ask myself “what now?”
What on earth am I going to do now?
This was hard, it was the first time in over 4 years that I genuinely felt doubt in my ability to stay motivated and driven in my career. For more context, I work in outside sales for a transportation company. Prior I spent four years in operations where I felt I had thrived.
It took a lot out of me to hear that I wasn’t meeting standards. I wasn’t successful enough. I wasn’t good enough. Or, that is at least how I heard it.
I leaned on my support team during this moment, and ask for their honesty. Was I good enough at this job to fight for it? Short answer? No.
This job isn’t my passion. This job isn’t what I want anymore. I want to go back to where I felt confident. I have been searching for new jobs in the area that [my partner and I] moved to. I am still in the process of finding a new passion in life, wish me luck.
After my minor breakdown, I got my temporary act together, fixed my makeup and started sprucing up my resume.
Now, I am here. Monday morning, half way through interviews and keeping my fingers crossed the entire time, and still working my current sales job. I have two weeks to improve my numbers, (yes, my manager is helping me), and today starts the countdown for those two weeks. This week is going to be big on my mental health and my stamina. I am going to be focusing, yes on my daily job, but loving on my puppy, prepping and packing for my trip with my partner, and just taking every second one step at a time.
Here is to working my butt off at my job, and working my charm in the interviews.
How was your weekend? Do Monday’s keep you down? How are you going to battle the Sunday Scaries?